Good to be Back!

I just spent almost 2 weeks in the hospital. It was horrible. I hope I never have to do that again. I have spent the last week or so seeing different docs and adjusting meds. It has been NO fun. The whole time I just wanted to feel good enough to blog. SO....now I do...and I have been thinking and ...

Midnight Rant 07: Copyright

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/embed/G64m3-PFkwI[/youtube] (Note this was recorded about a month ago and I didn't get around to publish it at the time. Also, I was scared.) Links: TGIB on Kiva TGIB on Kickstarter TGGrid Neb's Racer Kit Neb's Death Race  

5 things to pay before the money runs out

I've been quiet the past two months, which is mainly attributed to a much-needed holiday vacation and subsequent stressful getting-back-into-work period. All this is complicated by the fact that El's currently staying in the hospital, but hopefully will be out again sometime this week. Anyway, as you can imagine, there wasn't much time to do anything productive, so I don't ...

Kandy and Victory Modan

For those of you that have followed my blog for very long at all, you will know that I model hair for Ali & Alli.  This CUTE little updo is one of their newest releases aptly named Kandy.  When Alice gave us the hair she simply asked for "something sweet" . . .and I can see why.  I LOVE the ...

3 of a Kind – Jeans

A few weeks ago, as I was looking through the feeds and flickr photostreams I came across a pic of an avi . . .just a simple pick.  The picture showed an avi in casual clothes, various poses but all together and I had a thought . . .perhaps I should start a category in my blog where I shot ...

Siss Boom, Eclectica and R2 Fashion

I was going to do a Q&D for this post . . .I PROLLY should have done a Q&D (Quick and Dirty) for this post, but I once again became so enamored with it once it was done, that I just HAD to talk about it a little.  There are SO many things about it that are SO pretty. It has ...

Midnight Rant 06: The Hypergrid

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=arblVyxn0qQ[/youtube]   Links: Interview with Justin Clark-Casey Hypergrid Business - The Hypergrid is a social web Chuck Prophet on Archive.org Douglas Coupland and William Gibson on the KWLS William Gibson in Second Life (Part 1 | Part 2) Jeremy Bailenson on Infinite Reality: Avatars, Eternal Life and New Worlds Aloha

Ever an’ Angel

Don't you hate it when people aren't nice? Sometimes I wonder. Sometimes it seems like some people just want to be hateful and don't give two squats about what others want or need, or what is right or wrong. They live on the “me” level. And I find that SO disconcerting. It is NOT that I have never “visited” that ...

The Missing Image 04 – Meeting Justin Clark-Casey

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZJNWidQrgf8[/youtube] Links: Open Simulator Overte Foundation Justin Clark-Casey's Master's Dissertation on Internet-Scale Virtual Environment Architectures Hypergrid Unity 3D Second Life Experimental teleport between Second Life and OpenSim Diva Distro Kitely OpenSim Creations Topics: 1:30 How do you become an OpenSim core developer? 8:00 Can OpenSim become the "3D web"? 14:00 Does OpenSim need asset security? 24:00 Does OpenSim need feature parity with Second Life? 31:30 How do you decide which features are in OpenSim core? 37:30 The state ...

Donna Flora A to Z C is for Cerry

   Several years ago, when I was just a little bitty avi, I stumbled upon a shop named Donna Flora.  I still do not remember how I found it.  It was probably through one of the numerous groups that I am a part of...always looking for a bargain.  But I remember looking around and thinking that I had found THE ...

Midnight Rant 05: OpenSim and Unity 3D

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/embed/JnUPx0dF5h8[/youtube] Links: Archive 3D Blenderswap Pathfinder's Virtual World Presentation Lag in Second Life and OpenSim and how to deal with it

e!…Ingenue, Essences, Dark Mouse

    A while back my wonderful partner, Vanish suggested that I stop making my blogs SOOOO detailed and just blog about the one or two items of each outfit that really caught my attention.  That is SOOOO hard to do when there are SOOOO many pretty things just staring back at you!  The funny thing about it, is that this outfit ...

The Real Winner

category Tracked Daily | by El | on Mar9 2010

My precious V,

I am SO blessed to have you in my life.  Your love and kindness always amazes me.  I am always astounded that you even find me worth your time, but not only do you do that…you consider me of the greatest worth!  You have NO idea how your love has transformed my life, my sweet husband.  And while I LOVE to hear your soft words of love towards me and will gladly accept them, I KNOW that I am the real winner in it all!

FOREVER yours….D

[2010/03/08 14:36]  Vanish Firecaster: Thank you, *****.

 El Firecaster: I wish I could take credit for something, love…I will gladly accept it….but I always feel like the one who is grateful!

Vanish Firecaster: Mmmmh. Well, you let me take you; let me have you the way I want.  You are always dressing so beautifully for me, so special.  You are caressing me, loving me.

El Firecaster smiles at him.  How could I do anything else, love???…I LOVE you!  I WANT all those things!

Vanish Firecaster: Yes.  But you GIVE so much.

El Firecaster: I guess just as it is hard for you to understand when I tell you that it has not always been so….and you think it is SO natural for it to be the way it is now… that is the same way I feel.  It is SO natural how could it be any different?

 Vanish Firecaster: Still, I am grateful.  And I feel you need to be thanked.

 El Firecaster: I remember once walking with you…. and you so despondent…..over lost memories….and I told you we would make new ones and we have.  And now those old memories….the ones we thought were SO great at the time PALE in comparison!

Vanish Firecaster: Yes. It’s not even the memories. It is what you are HERE and NOW.  Every time anew.  I’m so grateful for that.

El Firecaster nods…Me too, baby!

Vanish Firecaster: And I think it’s important to say thank you.

El Firecaster kisses him. Yes.  I do too!…caresses him again….. running her fingers thru his hair softly.

Vanish Firecaster: It is so nice just to lay with you.

El Firecaster: God….I KNOW!…it is always SO wonderful!  

Vanish Firecaster: So peaceful, so easy to feel at home.

 El Firecaster: and I was thinking of that as I wrote the TD about the long walks at night…it IS very similar to that feeling…. SO calm like everything has stopped for that moment.

Vanish Firecaster: Yes. Yes, indeed.  God…. We will do that, love.      

El Firecaster: Will we?

Vanish Firecaster: We will.

El Firecaster: I was amazed to find out that you had experienced the same thing and I had never told anyone about what I THOUGHT as I walked thru the night…I was afraid they would think I was a FREAK!

Vanish Firecaster: I had to re-read what it says about your psychological type. We are SO similar.

El Firecaster giggles…What does it say?

Vanish Firecaster: It says you are dedicated to what you believe important. That you are extremely loyal. That most people will not understand you, because…your mind is so enigmatic… ..so full of wonders… …which you don’t understand yourself most of the time… …you just live in a world full of exciting things…

El Firecaster: It IS kind of a wonderland in there sometimes!

Vanish Firecaster: Sometimes?

El Firecaster: Ok ok ok…MOST of the time!

Vanish Firecaster: Mmmmh. You ARE perfect for me.

El Firecaster kisses him, nuzzling at his neck.

El Firecaster: Yes. I KNOW that!   There is NO doubt in my mind.

Vanish Firecaster: Yes. I just discover more and more wonderful things.

El Firecaster whispers in his ear… I will be fresh and new for you everyday, love.  I will be EVERY woman for you. I CAN do that.  I have just never been allowed to do it before.

 Vanish Firecaster: I know.  I know, ***.  That’s the thing.  I KNOW that!   And you ARE!  That’s the wonder of it all.   I will NEVER tire of you, because one lifetime is not enough to see all your facets.

El Firecaster giggles…Am I like a sculpty prim?

Vanish Firecaster: You are like the… …Eagle Stone……each facet catching the light in its unique way…

El Firecaster: awwww…. From “Gem”?

Vanish Firecaster: Yes.

El Firecaster kisses him softly, nuzzling at his ear…whispering….I love you….

Vanish Firecaster smiles softly, caresses her cheeks gently.

 [2010/03/08 15:00]  El Firecaster: welllll…..I still feel like I am the winner in it all!

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