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30
Jun
My Precious Husband,
I know that we will come across many hard times in our lives. I guess that is the “downside” of choosing to live this life over and over. Unfortunately, it is fraught with pain and heartache, but it is a price we consider worth paying to be with each other. This…is one of those hard times for me. And I know that because it is hard for me, it is hard for you too. I know you have had a lot on your mind lately as well and I cannot help but wonder if that is part of what has made you feel so bad! I HATE that you are ill and I cannot be there to “nurse” you, although most of my “nursing” would consist of hovering and asking you stupid, irritating questions. And the only thing it would really accomplish would be to make ME feel better!(giggles) But oh…how I long for the day that I can at least touch your brow and know that you are truly ok. I know that you probably did not tell me you were not feeling well to spare me any added stress! And here I am going on and on, whining and crying, while you are ill! I am sorry, love! I will be fine. But I DO appreciate you being there for me. I suppose this is the one thing I was dreading from the beginning. And so…it is finally done. I know there will be ramifications from it for the next few weeks, but as you said, it is time for me to think of me now. That is something that I have not done in quite a while. And it still feels foreign.
One thing I know, and that is together…we can face anything and walk through it, still holding hands… to the other side. Will you walk through the fire with me, love? This will not be the last time we will have to do it. But I am grateful that you love me that much. Together we will always be a strong cord not easily broken. Will you firewalk with me? Let’s see where it takes us….
I love you eternally….
Forever your adoring wife and personal…:)…slave…D
29
Jun
Music: Rest Assured by Karmafish
Words: wish
Scene: The new Ever 01 on OSGrid with the Palm House.
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28
Jun
Thank you love for taking me today to all the new places you have built for us. It is a place that feels safe and secure, protected from the “outside”. It was comforting to know that it was OURS and that pretty much NO ONE can find us there unless we invite them. Yes, there are some things missing, things that we have grown accustomed to, but it feels like home. I know that even the ground I stand on has been created by your hands and it is odd, but I feel a kindred nature with it, knowing that your hands created me as well. I was glad to be back inside the house today and see the things that I had grown to love. You are SO good at what you do, love! I am so grateful to be loved by “the architect”. As I danced in your arms in the hills outside our home, looking at the sun setting on the water, I knew that we would be happy there. It is OURS.
I know that just as you have built a safe and loving environment for us in the virtual world, you are working diligently to do the same for us in the real world! I am excited about the house, love and can’t wait to get into it and put my “stamp” on it! I am grateful that you love me that much, that you take all my wants and needs into consideration. I know that you will take good care of me and am grateful that you ALWAYS consider my needs and never feel them silly or extravagant. I promise I will try not to be TOO needy, for I TOO take your well-being into consideration and always want it to be at the forefront of my every move!
It is my prayer that our home will be filled with love and will be a refuge for us from the outside world. That it will be a place that we can be who we truly are and not have to answer to the prying eyes of others. I hope that harmony and love will fill the halls and that peace will pervade every nook and cranny. And in those times that fear or insecurity should creep in, it is my hope that we will see it for what it is and quickly dispel it. For I know that there is nothing in this world that you want more than to see me happy and well taken care of…I know that….because it is the way I feel about you, love. And we ARE two sides of the same creation.
I hope you slept well, my prince and that you have a wonderful day. Please talk to me in the car and show me all the sites…I promise I will listen! And when you come home and the cares of the day have drifted away with the setting sun, I will meet you once again to share with you and comfort you. I will lay in your arms and feel your warm hands run over my body as you love me. I will reach up to touch the face that has enamored me for almost a year now and think once again of how it is the most beautiful thing I have ever beheld. And as we drift into the bliss that follows the actions of lovers spent, I will close my eyes and thank God once again, for allowing me this time with you, for FINALLY hearing my prayers and returning me to the arms of the one that loves me.
Until then, mein Liebster,
FOREVER your adoring wife……D
27
Jun
Source: Palm House.zip; palmhouse.oar
Please see how to import this creation. Warning: This building is very big (ca. 120 m diameter) and counts up to 2200 prims. If the import of the .xml file crashes, try the .oar file. Due to the use of megaprims, this build will only work on OpenSim.
27
Jun
My precious husband,
Have I told you how much I love you? How that my every thought is of you? Have I told you how much you mean to me and how you affect my life? Have I told you that when I close my eyes it is your face I see? And when I look deeper….when I let my inner being take over….I can see us together…old and ancient..in places that I have never been and yet remember clearly! When we are together it is SO easy. We can just lay together and talk and laugh until we both become so sleepy we have to part! I look forward to the day when I will never be far from you, love. I SO look forward to the day that the miles between us will be closed and I will be under your protection once again…as it was in the days of old. It is SO comforting to me to know that I will no longer want for anything. There is not much that I have ever wanted…just you. I have never been complete, love…I have always known I belonged to another. I just never thought I would find you. I am SO pleased that we have been given this time together. I TOO feel like “It is too good to be true.” Maybe…just maybe…that is not ALWAYS the case. We were always taught that things that came easy were not worth having…and we have found nothing is farther from the truth. WE are easy…SO VERY easy. Our love has always been SO easy and SO natural. We did not have to fight for it, we did not have to MAKE it happen, we really don’t even have to work “hard” at it….it just IS. It is EASY….and SOOOOO very worth it! It is of more value than anything else to me! It is priceless! SO…maybe….”If it is too good to be true…then it probably is.” will not be the same for us either! Perhaps…we will find…that we have been allowed to have that one thing that we have both longed for, for so long….each other. And we will find…it is SO good…and SO true.
I am forever
your adoring, personal…:)…slave…D
26
Jun
My mother used to always tell me that when one door closed another would open. She was always right. Of course, almost everyone knows that to be true, it is not a life changing piece of knowledge for most, but mother had a tendency to just “know” things…and often had dreams that really happened. There were many, many things that she could see coming. And I often wondered if she knew how unusual that was and why she did not encourage that gift more in herself. I hate it when I think that most of her life she got bogged down in things that did not really matter in the end. She never saw what a wonderful woman she was. Instead she lived her entire life underestimating herself …always second guessing everyone and everything. She never LET anyone truly love her, although many tried….and she never loved herself. She made life hard on those around her and those that DID love her. Mostly because she could never accept their love. She lived in fear and mistrusted everyone around her. I watched that fear and mistrust eat away at her like a deadly disease. It literally transformed her.
I look back at her pictures when she was young, and she was SO vibrant…her cheeks rosy red, a full shape and bright smile. She always kept her hands busy and no one ever doubted that she was an amazing housewife and mother. But as time went on, the weight of such a burden took a great toll on her. I suppose it could be argued that it was just the nature of time. But somehow I think it was a little deeper than that. The anger, resentment and bitterness that she had nurtured began to show…physically and soon mentally. It was quite sad to watch…and no amount of love, no words…not even actions could reach her, the wall had grown so high.
Before she passed away I had the opportunity to tell her how much I loved her and what she meant to me. I was able to tell her what a WONDERFUL mother she had been to me and a good and loving wife. I told her what a model she had been to me and that her legacy would live on in me and in my children. I hope she could hear me. I believe that she did…and I choose to believe that at that point in time, she could FINALLY accept it. She FINALLY knew that it was true and that I HAD, in fact been a good and loving daughter to her and had never intentionally hurt her or did her wrong. It gave me the peace I needed to kiss her one last time and tell her that I would let her go….knowing that she would be in a happy place and FINALLY find that peace and consolation for which she had sought so long.
Sometimes when I look at myself, I see her. There are many, many good traits she passed on to me. I am very grateful for those. Unfortunately, there are also ones she passed on that were not so good. But I can at least, see them and recognize them and make a conscious decision to change them. And what is even better, love…is that you can see them too. And YOU will not allow me to hold on to them.
I am in a learning process. I am LEARNING trust. I CAN trust you. I can put my life and heart into your hands knowing it is safe there. There is no need to worry or fret over it, for I know that you would NEVER intentionally harm me and that every decision you make, is made with my welfare in mind.
I am learning that I am of worth. For a very long time I have felt like while I did have some nice qualities, they were really not of any value. And I am learning to feel differently about that. There are many things that I can do…and do well. And while there is no need to wear a giant flashing sign to advertise them to the world, it is perfectly ok to acknowledge them and be proud of the things I can do well.
I am learning that I am beautiful. That one is particularly hard for me. But I am learning that beauty truly IS in the eye of the beholder and that it transcends age and size and form. I know that when you look at me and tell me that I am beautiful, that you mean it! (And you HAVE seen more of me than anyone on this planet! So I guess you would know!) I know that while my body has been affected by age and time and abuse, that there are still plenty of things about it that you find attractive…and it is ok for me to find them attractive as well.
I am learning to trust my instincts. They have always been there. And I have always known that they were usually spot on…but I have by necessity, learned to ignore them. And now I know that they are there for a reason and I need to LISTEN to them. I DO have certain intuitions that others don’t seem to have. They are there for a reason. I can develop them and trust them.
I am learning that not all that is “evil” is evil and not all that is “pure” really is. It is a big world…and just as beauty is subjective, so is good and evil. We have to determine what is right for ourselves. And what is right for us may not be right for another. We cannot nor SHOULD we try to determine what is right or just for someone else. We TRULY need to let each one work out his own salvation with fear and trembling!
And I guess all these things can be summed up by saying, I am learning what it means to be truly loved. There are many love stories out there. Many ideas of what love is and how it should feel. Many different opinions of what TRUE love should be. I THOUGHT I knew it. I knew that I loved. And loved to the best of my ability, but that love has never been returned in a way that I could accept it. And I am not sure that my love was ever really accepted either. I am learning what it means to LET someone love me…and it is AMAZING, love! It has transformed me and saved my life.
SO….10 months ago today we pledged our undying love to one another. We began this walk, this journey together that has led us to this place in time. Today….I closed a door. Now I am ready to walk thru the next one. I can see your open arms there, love…and I am running to them, never to be let go. I am SO looking forward to the next chapter in my life. I know…that I will never have to write another one, alone. I know that EVERY chapter written from now on, will be done so in the comfort of your arms.
Ich liebe dich, mein Liebster….immer……D
25
Jun
This skin is based on templates offered for free by Eloh Eliot, without makeup or modifications. It serves as a base for all male rosy skins, coming with optional black, blonde and red body hair.
OSGrid: Ever 01
Source: rosy male
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25
Jun
This skin is based on templates offered for free by Eloh Eliot, without makeup or modifications. It serves as a base for all female dark skins, coming with optional black body hair and freckles.
OSGrid: Ever 01
Source: dark female
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25
Jun
This skin is based on templates offered for free by Eloh Eliot, without makeup or modifications. It serves as a base for all female pale skins, coming with optional black, blonde and red body hair and freckles.
OSGrid: Ever 01
Source: pale female
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25
Jun
This skin is based on templates offered for free by Eloh Eliot, without makeup or modifications. It serves as a base for all female tan skins, coming with optional black and blonde body hair and freckles.
OSGrid: Ever 01
Source: tan female
See the tutorial on how to use TGIB skins.
(Get the Da Vinci Machine here.)